Thursday, July 31, 2008
I made it through! I'm going to stay a bit longer in Alaska. There's no where else I want to be, although I frequently feel like running away. I understand that there's no where to run. I've made peace in certain areas of my life. I know that unfinished business can drive you nuts, but sometimes it takes longer than you can imagine to work things through. I encourage everyone to forgive. It may seem impossible, but it's the way to move on. I find peace in my heart today.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Homer, Alaska is a wonderful place. It's not for everyone, and that's good. 3 Legged Mule is the local band that packs a punch and puts on a good show. I saw them at Alice's Champagne Palace, Karacters and Concert on the Lawn. That was all in 24 hours. Homer is a dancing, party, town. I'm going back!
Friday, July 25, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Alaska is wet like Western Oregon this summer. I don't mind. My Grandaughter, Amelia Belle Cripps has arrived. It's such a sweet addition to our family. I'm happy. Day 10 of my fast and I'm dreaming of preparing a wonderful, healthy, feast. I'm on the 'Master Cleanse' and it works for me. The visions I've seen, and what I've learned about myself through this experience, is going to take a while to absorb. Life's good!
Sunday, July 20, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
I'm on day five of a cleanse. So, I dream of dessert. Having discipline over my intake is an amazing thing. I get satisfaction in knowing I can control something. It's been difficult, but I stay busy writing, and communicating with loved ones. I read the news, and listen to all the music I can. The days have been cold and rainy in Alaska. I don't feel guilty hiding in my room, going through the rituals of existance. Tommorrow, I teach a hot yoga class. Wish me success.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Thank you Universe for giving me all that I ask for. Sometimes the time thing is off, and turns out it isn't what I thought it would be, but I'm delighted this moment. This mountain top is a big part of my story, and I love the view. I hope you do too.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I'm working on boundaries. Everwhere I go I hear the word, BOUNDARY. In everything I do, I need to have them. I try and respect other's boundaries. I believe I do that, but I will run away fast when I feel judgement, or a prisoner to anything, or anyone. I'm letting go. I know I can. I see it clearly. I Love you because it gives me pleasure. I choose to Love, and I will embrace Love, when Love comes calling again. I feel light. I feel joy. Every moment that I falter, I renew with breath and trust in Love. Over and over like the beating heart, I'll inhale and exhale my way through this, into bliss. It can be wondrous.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
I'm looking inward for the love. The last five days were an incredible ride through despair. The rain came and with the drops, my tears fell in beautiful unison. The raven scolded me, and the squirel's danced through the pines. I lay there in corpse pose listening to the universe, open, wounded, surrendered. Waves of love came through me and I had a vision. I told it to go away, but it stood firm in it's message. I can't put it into words, but it's all about the love.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
A dark cloud choked my heart this week in Alaska. I made it through the bad spell by admiting that my heart is broken. Tell the truth. In one moment I'm exalted. The next, I'm weeping. I don't understand, but I will continue to love and I shall heal.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
I was reading about forgiveness. I was moved by the idea of forgiving people who hurt you, but I also recognized the part about asking for forgiveness, and apologizing. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. Forgive me for my attachments, my expectations, my insensitivity, and most of all...forgive me for losing faith and being afraid. I stretch myself in Alaska.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
It may be this or that. Could be right or wrong. I've learned one thing at least in Alaska, and that's, "You never know". I take in the mountains, sky, ocean, people and realize the blessings of my life. I see. Love is all there is.
Saturday, July 5, 2008
I've been all over lately. I'm working on my book, and I've been enjoying Alaska in the summer time. I went to the valley and visited Hatcher Pass,and hiked the Butte. The 4th of July was a good time. I danced, sang, and played hard with the boys. I have female friends here, but mostly I hang with men. I have my first client as a spiritual advisor. Amazing people believe in my healing art skills. I know I can help, it's just finding the best way to mentor others. I call myself a healer. A healer through humor.