Tuesday, December 29, 2009
This is an image of a bitter fruit sold at the International Market. It's grown in Hawaii. I don't know the name, but I know I don't want to become a bitter fruit.
I've been struggling between being loving and being a bitch. It comes in waves. Today I'm sweet, and right as rain. Who knows what I will feel like tomorrow? I want to find that peace and balance. I'm getting there. It's impossible to understand why people are so cruel? I don't have to. I will continue to believe in love. When I stay in the loving place, I am unafraid.
It is beautiful to love, trust, and know. I want to stay right here.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
The morning brings tidings of blue. I do many things, and I savor each and every moment. I find the present is enough. I won't wander far from my breath. I will keep it close and know that within me lies the key. What is drawn to me will unfold. Life is like a river today. I see my beautiful self. Happy at last in a peaceful love of life. Blessings reign down, and I open my arms to receive the gifts of the Universe.
Thank you Fortuna who has always looked kindly on me.
Saturday, December 5, 2009
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Monday, November 16, 2009
What is in my heart?
What is in my mind?
I shall learn what I came here for.
I know now, that it was all true.
Each inkling I had of life and love.
Every sign pointed to this.
It took a lifetime and now I twirl in delight.
Still the fool, but happy in my ignorance.
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
The morning brings me peace and joy.
The sun comes and I write to the ages.
History exists even in Alaska.
My primal connection, and primitive jog
on the streets of the Arctic, has not quieted in passion.
Girl, get out of here if you aren't tough enough.
Deep in last night, I woke from a dream.
I was helping a family with a dead woman.
Their matriarch had passed and we squirmed.
I sat on the porch of their old home.
Her husband had died just a few months earlier.
No body escapes, accept lovers.
I go out in to the day
breathing life and pondering death.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
I've gone and done it.
That's how I see it.
I've changed my life completely, and now I piece together a new existence.
How wonderful that the world offers up so many things.
Even in this Grand Mother place, I see the Universe at my fingertips.
2010 will be a challenge, and I shall step up and do the work.
That is a sacred vow. No more pussy footing around.
Monday, November 2, 2009
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Uriah Hulsey gathered this mushroom family, and proudly placed them on the counter at the Columbian Cafe. He made wild mushroom and smoked pork over pasta for me. He also prepared a wilted spinach salad that was rich and wonderful. We shared a 2001 Ken Wright Pinot Noir. I'm blessed to be here in any capacity. Enthralled by existence I drift in beauty. I don't know about you Miss Kitty, but I feel a whole lot yummier. That's all I can say at this point. Back to AK on the Red Eye tomorrow.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
This cycle or section of life has ended.
I begin again.
I enjoyed 'Lion King'.
The Universe provides for all needs and wants.
What a miracle, and I'm grateful.
Sitting in my room, I feel the winter coming.
Today is the best.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Friday, September 4, 2009
Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
In this photo I'm sitting with my daughter Iris. It's almost exactly a year ago. I dedicate this post to her. She is one reason that I am getting stronger in my resolve to make my way. It's complicated when the heart is involved. I find deep magic, and I continue to adore men and money. I choose to be free of the crap. Almost free. Oh Beauty!
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Friday, August 7, 2009
I left the bar after two drinks.
That may sound easy, but for me it was difficult.
Not because I wanted another drink, but because
I wanted resolve and peace.
I looked around and realized, I should go home.
That is what I did.
I got into my car, and drove up Minnesota.
As I reached the park, I saw a rainbow.
Whenever I see one, I think of it as an omen.
I saw this huge double rainbow high in the sky,
at ten o'clock at night, in Anchorage, Alaska.
I wouldn't have seen it if I had stayed any
longer at Darwin's.
These next few months are a journey, and a test.
My one promise to myself is simple.
Be true to myself.
So far, so good.
Monday, August 3, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Today is urgent in the stars.
No time to waste or wallow.
Getting the gumption to move on is mandatory.
I am in motion, but slow. I savor each moment.
Progress is work in retrospect.
Trying not to look at it in those terms.
More like a dance.
There is abundance and beauty here.
I am grateful and happy today.
Even if I move like a turtle.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
It's fire everywhere.
A full day expends itself.
In Alaska, the light slants.
It increases the chances of a full tilt boogie.
I'm not sure what any of it means, I just believe.
As the sun sets, I'm buried in the thickest time of life.
Kiss me again.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
The planets revolve in a mandala around the sun.
Today the tears come from joy.
Yes, the survival mode can exhaust you. The celebration begins.
The days are long here.
Many things can get accomplished, finished, begun and continued.
Beauty lies within.
I do not look for it any more on the street, or bars, or familiar haunts.
The ghost has left my heart. What's left is courage and love.
I see the path and find solace in my process.
All the lessons, time and patience has proven love is the cure.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I feel strong and ready to do the work.
Excited and completely thrilled that I'm getting a handle on,
'The Reluctant Shaman'.
Although the work is difficult,
and making up a story worth reading is hard,
I keep going in full faith that it is a story worth reading.
Funny, how hard it is to actually write.
No one knows unless they are a writer,
or have ever tried to write, how it is.
Turning straw into gold.
Yes, I'm taking thoughts,
and putting them on paper.
The golden moments of life.
Today is breakthrough.
The image: Sunset Anchorage June 9th 10:40 PM or so.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Sweet life of growth and wisdom.
I breath the beauty of our children.
Faces of wonder.
Hula Hoops and Dance light their eyes.
Fresh lives filled with love and promise.
I delight in being surrounded by the community of Anchorage.
The Ocean Festival was glorious.
Music, sun, families, friends.
Days like these are why I'm here.
The image: The Girls get the low down on where babies come from @ Ocean Festival 2009
Thursday, June 4, 2009
KoKo Taylor passed away yesterday. I lit a candle for her, and all the wild spirits that have inhabited the planet. I dedicate this entry to her hit, 'Let The Good Times Roll'. I find happiness in life today. Yes, it's not an easy life, but a full one is fine. I don't want to fight, but I do fight for what is right, fair, good, just. It's my interpretation. It could be wrong or right, but I find I'm impelled to stand up for what I believe in. When I love someone, it's hard to recognize if it's healthy, or dependent, or compromised. Yes, there is the blush of love and romance, but day to day life is not glamorous with most folks. I like being on my own. When people give me their insight on my faults, and weaknesses, I listen. I learn from my mistakes with people, but I can walk away still loving myself. Live your life. Know yourself.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Thursday, May 28, 2009
I've been squeezing the life out of each moment.
Realizing the importance of now, I celebrate continually.
Learning many things here in Alaska.
I study deeply.
Subtle signs of wisdom and patience cross my face.
The love is there and I ride the waves
of balanced emotion.
Honoring the goodness and recognizing the bull.
No easy task is today. I rise and play.
Saturday, May 23, 2009
I find the flow natural.
Serious life decisions are made.
Forever it seems sometimes.
Luxurious moments of breath.
Love is truly a blessing.
Twirling in bounty.
The photo is Deb Wessler and Robin Rosemond @ The Spenard Social 2009.
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I drive to Sunset as often as possible. I look for Moose. It's another world here. The Last experiment. I'm happier. It's taken a long while, but I see the growth.
Anyway, I will rest because the days are endless here.