Sunday, March 29, 2009
The days are wild and I find my life changing and growing in ways I never thought possible. I amaze myself with my openness and ability to roll with the punches and pleasure. I stare at the sky watching for ash from Mt. Redoubt. I wait for messages from loved ones. Oh, life is the greatest blessing. The bounty of the Universe showers me with gifts of the spirit and secret signs from the guides that show me the way. My heart has cracked wide open and now it's laid bare. Pumping blood to my mind and filling my veins with the thick, red, juice of existence. I'm grateful, very grateful. The image is Lucy Wainwright at the palatial KNBA Studio. She's wonderful!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
That's my favorite word lately.
This morning I feel the remnants of the black, gossamer web I freely wove.
The darkness still smarts in a flash of a look, the eternally shocking view of the Chugach, the brilliant skies of Alaska.
Clearly, this is the most beautiful place in the Universe. Not just because I'm here. It truly is the crowning gift of the planet. Our final experiment. I'll make it wondrous. I pray to be good. I wonder, but then I wipe the tears away and smile at love.
Friday, March 20, 2009
I'm feeling happiness. I hang on tight to love. I acknowledge that I followed my heart to Alaska. The inklings of my amorous high are sprouting wisdom. My fantastical journey is giving clear signs toward healing. I can go for hours now. To restore a broken heart is not an easy thing. To mend it without bitterness requires transcendence. I weep with quaking passion for my delight. The hard truth is softened by my practice of love. I see how tiny offerings bring such joyousness to the day. Kisses are always a way to express the inexpressible. What better way to live? Not one thing can diminish a moment filled with the discovery of a brimming ardor. How magnificent to explore the new world. We're cutting a trail with poetry, song and justice. Have faith Robin, that the Universe will bring beauty to your life in it's own way. Gracias.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Today is better. I'm strong within myself. I find the courage to look at the situation with joy. I'm happy in a deep way. I know it isn't all easy, but that's fine. The world slowly turns and I spin with it. Life is wondrous when I let go, and flow. The struggle is unnecessary. The Universe is providing me with all the bounty I can handle. This is a corner that I'm turning. I can't look back, because the road isn't straight. I've conjured up a miracle of change and life force. I will continue to love, but my boundaries are stronger. Thank you!
Friday, March 13, 2009
Today is Friday and I've had a difficult week. Last weekend was banner, and getting back in to the groove of the work schedule was hard. I'm happy that the full moon is over. I've gotten through some of the worst patches of my healing. It's annoying to be awful at certain things. I want to do well, but sometimes I suck. The reality that I'm not perfect is depressing, but I know full well when I do badly, and why I do badly. It's not a mystery, but it's hard to swallow the set backs, and humbling aspects of being human.
Monday, March 9, 2009
The weekend was wild. I played hard, worked hard, and made magic! I'm loving Alaska. It's wonderful to be beautiful and free. I'm on cloud nine and trying to stay present each and every moment. I'm learning and loving. It's the best ever. The photo is the Whipsaws with Melissa Mitchell. What a fun, fun, fun time. More please.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
And so it is.
Just like you said it would be.
Life goes easy on me most of the time.
Wondrous, oh so wondrous to be healing. I'm seeing the change inside me. I've let go and moved on. It's the hardest thing I've ever done. Because my heart is true and I love unconditionally, I don't let go. I find it hard to believe that people do not love me.
How can they not love me? Is it egotistical? I wonder how you are?
I love the Hawaiian prayer:
I love you.
Please forgive me.
I forgive you.
That's just it.