Monday, April 28, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
I love California! Lauren Mantecon and I have been delighting in each other's company. We've alreay done yoga, a hot tub, cooked a shrimp curry dinner, read our cards, our runes, danced, cried, laughed and are genuinely happy to see each other. The drink of choice is Malbec and the bouquet is tea rose. I'm so happy and filled with joy! I love my people and I love my beautiful friend!
Friday, April 18, 2008
Michael Franti and Spearhead at the Bear Tooth last night. It was a great performance, and a beautiful scene. I enjoyed the Anchorage crowd mixing it up. Michael Franti is an inspiration and I danced for hours. All points led to dancing and singing, so that's what I did. Of course there was the local drama of people's lives, but it didn't effect me because I'm on a different wavelength. I feel free and happy. "I don't know" is my mantra, and it seems to be working. I leave for California in a few days, so I'm hoping to find clarity after all this romance, sex, work, fun, tears, and wild, wild, wildness!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
The brilliant sky keeps me company this glorious morning. Alaska is my joy right now. Discovering the wide, open, wildness is fullfilling. I have dark days when I want to run away, but I've got no place in mind to run to. I don't have any desire to be in Portland right now. That may change down the road, but Alaska is it for me. I've been saying that I will give it a year. Through my work, prayer, and study, I'm gaining strength and finding ways to detach. I struggle for no reason sometimes, but perhaps it's the human condition. I can't rush this stuff. I've been meditating on the Mandala because it's my portal to the unconcious mind. Deep in my psyche there dwells someting that I've forgotten. That's why I'm here. I move closer to my purpose and the answer I've been searching for. It's beautiful to me, but so difficult to stay in balance. That's why my practice (yoga) is like a womb of health and calm. I love that I can surrender with asanas.
Monday, April 7, 2008
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
It's all happening and I'm incredibly fortunate to be in Alaska. I'm the April Fool, but I don't mind. I continue to be humbled every day. I follow my heart, and explore the subconcious terrain of the journey, where there's no road map. I study the aspects of the stars, research the archetypes, paint mandalas, practice beautiful asanas over and over, perfect my hand stand and pray. It's beautiful really. I'm transforming the humorist/healer that has always been inside me, into the Alaskan, circular, flow, fantastic! I cooked an incredible dinner for my Anchorage family tonight, and now I listen to the radio where I'm connected to the highest part of the Universe. Thank you John Trudell.