Tuesday, December 29, 2009

I Will Survive

This is an image of a bitter fruit sold at the International Market. It's grown in Hawaii. I don't know the name, but I know I don't want to become a bitter fruit.

I've been struggling between being loving and being a bitch. It comes in waves. Today I'm sweet, and right as rain. Who knows what I will feel like tomorrow? I want to find that peace and balance. I'm getting there. It's impossible to understand why people are so cruel? I don't have to. I will continue to believe in love. When I stay in the loving place, I am unafraid.

It is beautiful to love, trust, and know. I want to stay right here.

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Anchorage Bleakness

I'm feeling better by being real
Foolish? Yes, but how wonderful to love
I know what is good for me
Don't worry one more minute
Happiness now
Right now
I feel the healing going on

Monday, December 14, 2009

Road to Recovery

I made a promise
Now I have to keep it
I'm getting over the flu
It nearly killed me
Health is worth everything

Monday, December 7, 2009

Snow on Whale Sculpture

The morning brings tidings of blue. I do many things, and I savor each and every moment. I find the present is enough. I won't wander far from my breath. I will keep it close and know that within me lies the key. What is drawn to me will unfold. Life is like a river today. I see my beautiful self. Happy at last in a peaceful love of life. Blessings reign down, and I open my arms to receive the gifts of the Universe.
Thank you Fortuna who has always looked kindly on me.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Delicious December

Happiness seems to bubble from a secret place.
When I live in the moment it creeps up on me.
I gaze out a window and follow my breath.
I walk the distance and enjoy each step.
Wonderful and delicious to be.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Thursday, November 26, 2009

I Will Second That

Turkey Day 2009
Alaska does it again
On my knees and begging
for peace in my heart
That is what I truly want
The farthest distance is from the
heart to the head
I'm at the neck

Saturday, November 21, 2009

I'm Letting Go

Today I surrender
The meaning of life is rich
Some people don't agree
I know differently
But there's nothing to prove
Love is my solace

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Silver Sun Love

Silver Sun Love
No secrets anymore
Tell my Love
I will Sing
Silver Sun Love

Monday, November 16, 2009

What Now My Love?

Oh Love
Oh Love
What is in my heart?
What is in my mind?
Oh Love
Oh Love
I shall learn what I came here for.
I know now, that it was all true.
Each inkling I had of life and love.
Every sign pointed to this.
It took a lifetime and now I twirl in delight.
Still the fool, but happy in my ignorance.
Oh Love
Oh Love

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Sweetest Time of Day

The morning brings me peace and joy.
The sun comes and I write to the ages.
History exists even in Alaska.
My primal connection, and primitive jog
on the streets of the Arctic, has not quieted in passion.
Girl, get out of here if you aren't tough enough.
Deep in last night, I woke from a dream.
I was helping a family with a dead woman.
Their matriarch had passed and we squirmed.
I sat on the porch of their old home.
Her husband had died just a few months earlier.
No body escapes, accept lovers.
I go out in to the day
breathing life and pondering death.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Cold November Comes

I've gone and done it.
That's how I see it.
I've changed my life completely, and now I piece together a new existence.
How wonderful that the world offers up so many things.
Even in this Grand Mother place, I see the Universe at my fingertips.
2010 will be a challenge, and I shall step up and do the work.
That is a sacred vow. No more pussy footing around.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Notice the Beauty

Fortunate one
Of this I am sure
Sweetest lifetime
This is my life and I love it

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Astoria Halloween

Uriah Hulsey gathered this mushroom family, and proudly placed them on the counter at the Columbian Cafe. He made wild mushroom and smoked pork over pasta for me. He also prepared a wilted spinach salad that was rich and wonderful. We shared a 2001 Ken Wright Pinot Noir. I'm blessed to be here in any capacity. Enthralled by existence I drift in beauty. I don't know about you Miss Kitty, but I feel a whole lot yummier. That's all I can say at this point. Back to AK on the Red Eye tomorrow.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

The New Moon Tells It

This cycle or section of life has ended.
I begin again.
I enjoyed 'Lion King'.
The Universe provides for all needs and wants.
What a miracle, and I'm grateful.
Sitting in my room, I feel the winter coming.
Today is the best.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Think Twice

The mask is torn aside
The light escapes
Run lady
Find the joy inside yourself
You can do it
Love is the answer

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Can You Feel The Love?

I like to dress up.
I am happiest when I feel beauty.
Wondering what I can do to let go?
Breath for sure.
Then, hope for the best.
Fond Regards,


Friday, September 4, 2009

More later. Moon is full is Pisces. I'm in deep. It's beautiful beyond words. Sing!

Monday, August 31, 2009

Mamaism Art

Summer, please don't end.
I'm still in love with Alaska.
Getting ready to leap off in to a whole new way of life.
I'm prepared and joyous.
Love is all there is.
Art is the way.
Mamaism comforts me.

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Berry Delicious

I will find the way
Today I reach deep within myself
Finding the greatest of all gifts
Right here

I stand above the city
Staring down at the carpet
The carpet of Berries
The jewels of nature

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Everything Passes Everything Changes

Life is good
I wince at some of the confusion
But it's natural that things end
No matter what
Let go
I breath and see the path
Love is all there is

Friday, August 14, 2009


I like doing new and challenging things.
A new friend and I, hiked straight up a mountain.
We foraged, and found blueberries.
We were above the clouds.
I believe in love, fire, water, air and earth.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Men and Money

In this photo I'm sitting with my daughter Iris. It's almost exactly a year ago. I dedicate this post to her. She is one reason that I am getting stronger in my resolve to make my way. It's complicated when the heart is involved. I find deep magic, and I continue to adore men and money. I choose to be free of the crap. Almost free. Oh Beauty!

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Anjali Mudra

I sit with my hands in prayer. I feel better. I breath and know how magnificent life is. I have far to go on this Alaskan adventure, but each step is precious. Love is the only way.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Time Tests Our Resolve

I left the bar after two drinks.
That may sound easy, but for me it was difficult.
Not because I wanted another drink, but because
I wanted resolve and peace.
I looked around and realized, I should go home.
That is what I did.
I got into my car, and drove up Minnesota.
As I reached the park, I saw a rainbow.
Whenever I see one, I think of it as an omen.
I saw this huge double rainbow high in the sky,
at ten o'clock at night, in Anchorage, Alaska.
I wouldn't have seen it if I had stayed any
longer at Darwin's.
These next few months are a journey, and a test.
My one promise to myself is simple.
Be true to myself.
So far, so good.

Friday, July 31, 2009

Good Bye July

Happiness is a moment in the sun
Living now
Childlike response
Telling the truth
Sweetest second caught eternally
Still energy
Clear transmission
Love is present

Monday, July 27, 2009

Eternal BBQ IV

I love McCarthy, Alaska.
The scope of land and beauty is never ending.
I will go back.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


I've come to a stop and I like it.
The last few days, I've learned many things.
I understand how cradled I am.
The Universe has provided me with protection.
Somehow when I trust, it flows beautifully.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Hilarious Life

The mystery and magic continues.
What next?
I am fully ready.
Love, love, love!

Monday, July 13, 2009

Thick Summer Daze

Delirious daze.
Summer 2009 is kicking my ass.
The intensity and challenge is big.
I find myself looking to rest, just for a few moments.
Only to return to the action of life.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Full Moon July 2009

That is what it is.
Happiness is an elusive treasure.
Tonight I am brimming with the stuff.
What amazing love.
Tender, tasty, tidbits. of life.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Full on Summer

Today is urgent in the stars.
No time to waste or wallow.
Getting the gumption to move on is mandatory.
I am in motion, but slow. I savor each moment.
Progress is work in retrospect.
Trying not to look at it in those terms.
More like a dance.
There is abundance and beauty here.
I am grateful and happy today.
Even if I move like a turtle.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Beautiful Summer

Oh Beautiful Summer.
More wondrous than any post card, or miracle.
This is the best of life.
Great lessons, loving, happy times.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

The Heat of Magic

It's fire everywhere.
A full day expends itself.
In Alaska, the light slants.
It increases the chances of a full tilt boogie.
I'm not sure what any of it means, I just believe.
As the sun sets, I'm buried in the thickest time of life.
Kiss me again.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Alaska Lilac

Solstice is here.
The longest day, and the shortest night.
I let it unfold.
Here is my bouquet for today.
Lilac, oh beautiful lilac.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Survival and Celebration

The planets revolve in a mandala around the sun.
Today the tears come from joy.
Yes, the survival mode can exhaust you. The celebration begins.
The days are long here.
Many things can get accomplished, finished, begun and continued.
Beauty lies within.
I do not look for it any more on the street, or bars, or familiar haunts.
The ghost has left my heart. What's left is courage and love.
I see the path and find solace in my process.
All the lessons, time and patience has proven love is the cure.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Telling a Man

I had to speak up.
I said I didn't want to work that hard.
I want to be loved and adored.
I want to laugh.
I want to play.
I want to feel happy about our time together.
I really love you, but get out.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

The Golden Days Begin

I feel strong and ready to do the work.
Excited and completely thrilled that I'm getting a handle on,
'The Reluctant Shaman'.
Although the work is difficult,
and making up a story worth reading is hard,
I keep going in full faith that it is a story worth reading.
Funny, how hard it is to actually write.
No one knows unless they are a writer,
or have ever tried to write, how it is.
Turning straw into gold.
Yes, I'm taking thoughts,
and putting them on paper.
The golden moments of life.
Today is breakthrough.

Thank you!
The image: Sunset Anchorage June 9th 10:40 PM or so.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

The Children Help

Sweet life of growth and wisdom.
I breath the beauty of our children.
Faces of wonder.
Hula Hoops and Dance light their eyes.
Fresh lives filled with love and promise.
I delight in being surrounded by the community of Anchorage.
The Ocean Festival was glorious.
Music, sun, families, friends.
Days like these are why I'm here.

The image: The Girls get the low down on where babies come from @ Ocean Festival 2009

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Let The Good Times Roll

KoKo Taylor passed away yesterday. I lit a candle for her, and all the wild spirits that have inhabited the planet. I dedicate this entry to her hit, 'Let The Good Times Roll'. I find happiness in life today. Yes, it's not an easy life, but a full one is fine. I don't want to fight, but I do fight for what is right, fair, good, just. It's my interpretation. It could be wrong or right, but I find I'm impelled to stand up for what I believe in. When I love someone, it's hard to recognize if it's healthy, or dependent, or compromised. Yes, there is the blush of love and romance, but day to day life is not glamorous with most folks. I like being on my own. When people give me their insight on my faults, and weaknesses, I listen. I learn from my mistakes with people, but I can walk away still loving myself. Live your life. Know yourself.

Friday, May 29, 2009

I Create Friendship

Friends are my elixir.
Having the ones I have is dear.
I am far away, but close in heart.
Thank you.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Spring Rain in Alaska

I've been squeezing the life out of each moment.
Realizing the importance of now, I celebrate continually.
Learning many things here in Alaska.
I study deeply.
Subtle signs of wisdom and patience cross my face.
The love is there and I ride the waves
of balanced emotion.
Honoring the goodness and recognizing the bull.
No easy task is today. I rise and play.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Oh So Flow

I find the flow natural.
Serious life decisions are made.
Forever it seems sometimes.
Luxurious moments of breath.
Love is truly a blessing.
Twirling in bounty.
Giving thanks.

The photo is Deb Wessler and Robin Rosemond @ The Spenard Social 2009.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Alaska is the Last Experiment

I drive to Sunset as often as possible. I look for Moose. It's another world here. The Last experiment. I'm happier. It's taken a long while, but I see the growth.

Anyway, I will rest because the days are endless here.